Put it simply, if I’m over 18, I have to serve the military for a year.

After offering my service to the country, both physically and mentally, I’m ready to sail the freedom ship. Next coordinate: the free world where I can actually own myself and create a lifestyle that I can happily live on.

Prisoner of Life

It’s not the first time that I see sadness in the idea of waking up everyday at 6am to continue the same path I just took yesterday, and the day before, and the day and the day before. I have been developing this idea since my Freshman Year during college in 2005. But I didn’t do anything about it.

When I started working, that 9-to-5 grind was just too much for me to bear. That 9-to-5 grind was helping the boss to create the lifestyle he wanted. Not me. No boss ever asked me what I wanted to do with my life 10, 20, 30 years later. Actually, no one cared. Except me. Whatever you do for your boss, you don’t own it. Nil. Nada.

Military is even worse. You own absolutely nothing. Not even your body. Just your mind.

I have this vision of what I want to be, but I just can’t seem to get it. I’ve read countless of books, trying to imitate inspirational people’s footsteps. But something is just stuck. I don’t know what. Fear, perhaps?

Having worked a 9-to-5 job, and serving in the military (which quite frankly, is a slavery for the country), I’ve attempted to push myself after working hours to come up with something that I can use to jump ship into a free world.

I have to admit, it’s very unsuccessful. Half-assed projects. Never shipped. Half-assed skills. Never gotten anywhere.

A lot of people see me as a person with strong goals and strong work ethic. But I’ve to tell you, that never got me anywhere into the free world. Because I didn’t have the gut. Chickening out was the easy way. And I took it.

It’s very disappointing to say the least. My poker face was good enough to trick people into looking up to me, but it didn’t help my inner-self. Why? I don’t know. Fear, perhaps?

Fault of a Creator

I’ve signed up for Amy Hoy’s newsletter way back when she still had her Unicorn Free website. But at that time I still had my steady job, so I couldn’t careless what she wrote. I just thought she had the lifestyle I wanted, so I had to put her on my list.

It’s not until recently when she rebranded Unicorn Free as Stacking the Bricks, and sent an email to all her subscribers about the new change, that I began to enjoy her writing. I clicked her email, read it, read more of her stuff on the website. Listened to her podcasts. And I just had my aha-moment. I was hooked by her writing because she was targeting people who create. Like me.

Whether designer, developer, author, or any creative people, we fall into the prey of always wanting to make something for nobody. Perhaps we are making for ourselves, but are going to pay our own self? No. No way. For us creative people, we like to make then show. It’s cool if no one’s going to buy it. They’ll look at it. Maybe use it in a heartbeat. Or maybe not. But who cares? We’re not getting paid. Now, if they do need to pay us to see or use, you better be damn certain they will want to spend money on your little creation. But most likely not. Unless you won the lottery or spend a lot of money on advertising.

Amy seemed to have this magical wand that can turn any creator into a product creator. And I bought it. You should really head off to her website to learn more of her magical power, but borrowing her words, this is the magical bullet in a nutshell: “right now, you just have to finish your thing and get it online, and in the hands of your customers“.

Very simple. Yet very powerful.

If you don’t understand it, please pay a visit to her website. It’s a wealth of information that only she could explain in her magical way.

Moving away from Amy, Gary Vaynerchuk also said in one of his videos to a college student who was lost. He basically told her, “you just have to do, do, do”.

It then got me thinking, why does a To-Do List work? Because you’re actually doing the things that you’ve set out to accomplish. Maybe a little too far fetched. But the action of doing and the sense of accomplishment after crossing out a to-do item is what makes you happy. It’s what makes your adrenaline rush, and it’s what makes you achieve your goals.

Comfort Brings Procrastination

Financial comfort. Lots of money to spend. Time comfort. Lots of time to waste. Being comfortable isn’t good. Because it kept me jumping all over the place. I can do this cool thing now. But if it ain’t cool, I’m going to start a new one. How about learn that new thing? Yeah, it’d be cool for this new thing I’m going to make. It’s going to blow the world.

Then, fuck. You have all these things in bits and pieces, and nothing solid to show to people.

Now that I have quit my job and finished my service, nothing is in the way. Just my discomfort. I’ve no financial security. I’ve no time security. More time I use, more money I lose. I just have my mind and my ambition.

What Next?

I’m going to do. And I’m going to give. I’m going to write as many details as possible about my journey on this website. I hope to continue to learn and reflect through this documentation technique, while also offering interesting ideas to anyone who’s reading.

No matter how hard the work is, no matter how challenging and draining my hours will be, everything is going to be worth it. Because I’m finally working for myself. I’m finally taking control of what I want to become.

So here’s the goal, I’m not going to sell my soul to make a living. Instead, I’m going to sell my soul to help other people improve their lives. Let’s see if this works.